my portion forever.

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For the past several evenings I have been participating in our church's redemption groups.  It's kind of like a form of group counseling that God has given me the privilege of being a part of.  You can read about my first experience (as a participant) here.

I have participated in redemption groups a handful of times now.  Both as a participant and as a leader.  I didn't want to do it this time around.  I felt overwhelmed, burdened, stressed, and... well, just a plain hot mess.  I felt completely unfit to care for/counsel anyone else, as I often feel like my own life is unraveling at the seams.  But the truth is, in my own strength, I am completely unfit to care for anyone else.  In-and-of-myself, I have nothing to offer.  I cannot heal the hurting wounds that some of these women have experienced.  I cannot take away their heartache.  I cannot relate to all of their pain.

But HE can.

And for that I am grateful.

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." 
     -Psalm 73:26